Thirty Seconds to Mars - "Closer to the Edge"

I'm SO in love with this video right now! I also just realized he cut off the hair...I think I might cry LMAO!

Pedal Pusher

I've decided I want/need a car finally. Yeah, I'm kinda old to not have one but I've never really HAD to have one up until now. I'm not sure what the car insurance rates would be considering I'm older and haven't had a license etc. but it's something I need to do. I'm not exactly sure how we can afford it right now but within the year it's a definite must so I'll have to find a way to make it happen. Hopefully I haven't developed a fear of driving after all these years. LOL!

In Love with Love

I've found myself doing some things that I haven't done in a while and it's kind of odd. I've accepted a long time ago that I'm what people call a love addict but it's hard to not act on it sometimes. If you're wondering what that is, it has nothing to do with sex for me. It's more of the feeling of being in love and knowing someone is in love with me. If you can think back to the beginning of a really good relationship and both of you had that passion and love all the time, every day...that's about what it is that I'm always looking for. It's weird and hard to explain but it's a part of me I fight with every day. I don't like being like this and it's taken me forever to figure it all out but now that I know I can at least keep myself from doing anything irrational. LOL

Creases

Have you ever looked in the mirror and found that you have a line that you've never seen before? I normally don't inspect myself too closely but every now and then I'll find something in a passing glance that's shocking. I've been using some anti-aging products but I kind of wonder if I'll need to get some deep wrinkle creams or something soon. Okay, I'm not THAT old but I'd like to deal with it sooner than later. LOL

Shed the Flab

I've gained a few too many pounds recently, which totally doesn't help fitting into the new jeans I needed. I really need to get back to where I was but I need a little help right now. I was thinking of trying to get phentermine without prescription or using one of the imitators out there but I'm not sure what to do yet. I normally get good results with caffeine so it's a possibility, plus I could really use the energy. I'm not feeling very productive lately and it doesn't help when you need to slim down quickly. LOL!

Breastfeeding

I'll admit that I had really wanted to breastfeed both of my children exclusively when I had them but it seemed I wasn't producing enough for either of them. Well, with Yes-Yes I think I had more than enough but he was really not the brightest when it came down to it. I would be so tired in the middle of the night that I didn't realize that he wasn't sucking properly and would sit there with his mouth open and both of us would end up needing a bath afterward. With No-No I don't think I had enough at the right times and it ended up being a pain for her because she fed so often. I tried a few tricks to increase breast milk production but ultimately I ended up switching to formula because they were so small anyway that they needed all the milk they could get. I know I tried but I sometimes think I should have kept trying instead because we all want the best for our babies.

Mohawk Men

I'm finding out that I have this huge infatuation for men with mohawks. LOL! I never really thought about it until I started listening to Neon Trees and realized 30 Seconds to Mars had new songs out too. They're actually touring together right now and I would more than love to go see them some where! Anyway, I now have a crush on both Tyler and Jared like I were some teeny bopper all over again. I think I might be making it a mission to find a cute one of my own now. LOL!

Cash or Credit?

That's what used to be asked when you checked out at a store when I was little. Now it's credit or debit and cash is almost non-existent. I still prefer to use cash if I can when I shop because it helps control my budget and I won't usually over spend. Shopping with cash online is a problem though because it's all "virtual". That was, until I found ebillme.com, which allows you to pay through your bank account like you would any other online bill pay. The best part is that they have linked up with a large group of merchants and they have one of my favorite things...coupons! I'm pretty happy that I found this site because it is a safe way to pay and I don't have to worry about where my card numbers go anymore.

Pot Belly

Sometimes I wish I had a magic way to figure out how to lose stubborn belly fat . There have been so many gadgets and products that say they can help but DH won't try any of them. He has gained a ton of belly fat recently because of his medications and his energy is also low. I'm not sure what to do yet because HE has to want to do it but I worry about his health with all that there.I'm thinking I might just get a couple of things for him to try and maybe he'll find one interesting or helpful and keep up with it. Actually, I could probably use it myself too LOL!

Dress Shopping

I went shopping with my friend yesterday who was looking for casual dresses. WE went to a bunch of stores and finally found one that she was happy with. I forgot how many dresses a person could try on in one day! LOL! It's almost like shopping for jeans I think, you have to try them all on before you find one that's the right fit and length for you. She picked out this gorgeous dress with pretty embroidered detailing on it. It was just right because she's going to a wedding that is between business casual and semi-formal so she needs to look polished yet not overly formal. I think she'll fit right in.

Full Circle

It's funny how life works out. In the last two months I've reunited with three of my old best friends and I couldn't be happier. One of them (him) I haven't talked to in about a week and I'm not really sorry. Too many things were happening that was bringing drama into my life, but I still miss him lots. The other two are fantastic and supportive just as we always were. It's nice to know that my kids again have a Godmother and auntie and we can all go on from her together. I've forgotten what it's like to have close friends around me because we were all so busy doing what we needed to for the time being. I'm so happy that I have them back!

Randoms

I was just thinking the other day about the oddity that happened at Thanksgiving a few years back. My poor grandma had gotten stuck in the bathroom because the door lock broke and she couldn't get out and was starting to panic. Luckily she was in the bathroom on the ground floor so I (and my seven month pregnant self) had to climb through the window because I was still the smallest person to go through to help calm her down. My stepdad was able to take the handle off but it was sure an adventure! LOL!

Future Prep

Having a sick friend has really started to make me think. It would be very smart if I started to compare life insurance to find something just in case for the kids. I have no idea if my friend got anything for his kids but I worry what might happen to them if he goes. He and I are both the soul supporters of our children and it started to run through my mind that if something were to happen to me things might get really bad. I don't like think ing about that and I know it's not something other people like to think about either but it is really good to be prepared because anything can happen at any time.

My Own Boss

My aunt has a friend who has been trying all sorts of different way to work at home. It was interesting to hear about all of the different business opportunities that she's tried because she's a mom of two too and I'd like to find something I can do as well. There are so many things that can be done but when it comes to having kids, especially young ones, it can make things a little more difficult. I can't wait to start looking into and trying out some of the ideas and things she's come across. Hopefully I can get to where she is soon too.

He's Dying?!

I got word that my best friend from like 18 years ago has been battling stomach cancer and might be dying. I can't imagine that he might only have a short time to live from here on out! He's only going to be 32 in a couple months and he has three kids and one on the way. It's way too short for him to go now and I hope he doesn't find out that it might be coming back. I haven't heard from him in a week or so and I'm beginning to worry but I think his girlfriend is keeping him from calling me. I'm not sure what to do about it yet so all I can really do is sit and worry and it's not the most fun thing to do.

More Money

I hardly use my cell phone and mostly communicate through email but I've noticed that usage going up and I had to change our plan the other day. It's funny because I love my Samsung phone but I haven't used it enough to know what it does. Does it make me old that I don't know what to do with my phone? LOL!! We have really only stuck with Samsung cell phones because a long time ago we had no reception at all and their phones were the only ones that got any. now we have some but we still can't walk through our house without losing the person or breaking up so badly that there's no point. I'm hoping that we can use the phones without worrying now and it's only a few dollars more really so it was a good decision. The guys might want newer Samsungs now that they can talk more though. LOL

Techy Daddy

Sometimes when I look back on my life there are things that seemed just tiny bit odd to me and I would just shrug them off. My dad is involved in many of these types of memories. LOL I never quite understood why he had this thing attached to the windshield of his car that had blinking lights on it. He told me it was a radar detector but of course I had NO idea what that was and I'm sure he didn't want to tell me that it was to avoid speeding tickets, so I just kind of sat there confused but let it go. I'm not entirely sure why he had one since he never seemed to go that fast but maybe he did when I wasn't around? Who knows. He had so many gadgets of different sorts that I never bothered wondering what much of it was until I was old enough to start to understand what each of them did.

Get a Job(?)

Even though I have so many ideas that I'd like to work on and bring in some money with I've been thinking that maybe the safer route would better. I'm thinking maybe I'll just go back to school and get an actual career. I'd LOVE more than anything to work for myself, it might be better to have a stable job, insurance, and a pension. I'm not sure any idea I have will really bring in enough for living and saving so it might be a better side thing to do. The only question I have left to answer would be what kind of career path do I want to follow? The medical field is probably best since there's never a shortage of jobs so I might look for a medical assistance program that suits me and is some what flexible since I really don't have a schedule. We'll see but at least it's a thought for now.