Swimsuit Ready

Okay, I haven't worn a bathing suit in...man, I don't even know! As I got older I went more towards wearing board shorts and tank tops over one so I haven't been too worried about how I look in a long time. I remember having a talk with my dad when I was young about never wearing a bikini because I have this huge scar from surgery. He thought I would anyway but I never really did without covering up. I'd really like to be able to go swimming with No-No though and now I'm all ick. LOL Sometimes I think about taking a fat loss supplement to help jump start things but I have a feeling that we're going to be very active this summer so I'm actually not really worried...for once.

Sunny Day!

I'm SO glad that the weather is finally starting to be more spring-like! Now I've got to do my research on the best day creams though. I've noticed some spots starting to come up and I certainly don't want more. I can't use regular sunscreen because it totally doesn't agree with my skin either so that doesn't help any. I think I need something for sensitive skin but I'm not sure what yet. I wish I could see a dermatologist so I could get some suggestions.

Marketing Stuff

The lady I work with was asking about marketing and stuff, which in itself is funny since I don't know anything about that but I think she's trying a paid web directory. I'm not sure how those compare to free ones or even how they work at all (LOL) but I think it's good that she's trying it so I can see what the results are without doing it myself. Well, I don't have anything to even put on my site right now so it will be a while before I need to go there anyway.

A Day I'd Like to Forget

Today marks the 15th anniversary of a day that altered my life forever. It's something that I don't care to ever think about again yet it's there and always will be. It's probably one of the worst things that ever happened to me and will never happen again. No matter how many days I live knowing it happened and forgetting about it, this day marked the beginning of it all and I never forget about it.

The traumatic events in my life have made me who I am today and although I don't care to remember them I don't necessarily regret having had to go through them. I've always chosen or had the hardest way of learning but I'm grateful that I'm not nearly as naive as some people that never went through the things that I did that I know. As much as I'd like to forget about what happened on this day, for now I'll choose to celebrate the birth of the person that I now am. :o)

Totally Stressed

This week is really not going to be a fun one and I really wish I could hide out some where. I have a whole bunch of "grown-up" things to deal with that I'd rather have some one else help with. I know we all say that but there's just some things that are a little much for me and I can feel the anxiety just thinking about it. I swear by the end of this week not even best wrinkle creams are going to be able to turn back the clock. Between that and No-No's potty training I may need a vacation...or some one may have to lock me up. LOL!

Spring!

It's been SO nice here the last few days and it's supposed to stay this way almost all week. It's great not to be in the glums for a while. The only thing about this time of year is Easter shopping. I never know what to put in No-No's basket, the kid has so much stuff as it is!

Her cousin is going through her communion soon and the communion invitations should be going out soon. I don't even know what they give kids for that anymore. When I had mine I ended up with a lot of junk that I never knew what to do with. I always thought that it might have been better to be Jewish at that point. LOL!

Greedy Mongers!

I'm always super excited when it's an Olympic year since I secretly wished to be competing when I was young. This year it was even more exciting since they would be within our time zone. Of course money triumphs and thanks to NBC's greed and massively mean decisions we won't see one event live on TV at all. At first we thought that it was only the opening ceremony since it was a rather inconvenient time here but I quickly realized that it was the whole darn thing! I am so disgusted that again I live in the wrong time zone and this time it should be right.

I really hate NBC! They make some of the worst decisions imaginable. To me this is just as crappy as the second to last season of the Biggest Loser. The schedule was different so I went to the website to find out what time it would be on here and VOILA! The stupid results were posted on the home page of their site before it even aired here. WTH?! I mean really, I feel like I have to live in a bubble for anything to be a surprise at all anymore.

For the Love of Chocolate

V-Day is one of the biggest days for chocolate through out the year and we have no shortage of it around here. There's probably nothing I'd rather have than a bunch of chocolate covered caramels in one form or another. It certainly isn't one of the best diets for quick weight loss but hey, who can resist? As we drove by every visible See's yesterday, there were tons of cars and people all over. I couldn't imagine working there let alone being in the factory having to pump out so many of them. Too bad it's something we all should savor rather than scarf. LOL

Onto a Better Road

I've been trying to be healthier especially since I saw Food Inc. (which EVERYONE should see) and I cook a whole lot more now on top of shopping differently. I figure if the way we eat effects the cost of our health care I'd much rather start with eating properly, especially since we don't have insurance. I'm not talking about just eating more veggies but knowing where my food comes from and buying organic food. It's so easy for us to spend all of our money on fillers like pasta and stuff but if it comes to that I'd rather buy potatoes. The best part is that all of this falls into the quick weight loss program that I got a while back and couldn't stick to. I wasn't too good with all this back then but now I'm more than ready to be healthier and not see so much of me. LOL

Totally LOST

Since LOST has come back on for its final season I've been totally thrown as what to watch anymore. It was bad enough with two of my favorite shows being on the same day but now there's three! Even worse is that tonight is the opening of the Olympics and that's just going to make things harder. I'm so dumb for not getting a DVR! I didn't think I needed it and didn't want to pay the fee but now I'm totally rethinking the whole thing. As it is I'm constantly trying to keep up on every other show online before the next one comes out and that's a pain in itself. Why do I care? Because the few shows I actually do watch is the only time I get to do anything for myself during the week. Knowing that I'm missing even those few hours really stinks because I know that time is going to someone else and not myself. I miss taking care of me!

The Job Market

It seems there still hasn't been a really big increase in employment lately and that means it's going to be that much longer until DH finally lands something. He's been putting himself out there more lately but he still gets discouraged knowing what kind of resumes he's competing with. I feel bad for him but this really goes to show our kids why it's so important to be as successful as you can possibly be. I haven't looked into it but it would be interesting to see how many new small businesses have been created since things fell apart. I'm sure a lot of people have tried going about their situations differently since getting hired isn't looking good for so many.

Carnie's Fat Again?!

I'm not ever up to speed on celebs or what they're doing so it was kind of shocking to me when I saw a commercial for another Carnie Wilson show poking fun at how she gained weight again. I guess she hasn't dealt with the issues she needs to or something else happened that I don't know about. It's surprising to me how people go through bariatric surgery and keep fluctuating. I mean, don't they understand how serious surgery is or what? I've already been through two surgeries in my short life, suspecting there will be more down the road, and I can't imagine doing something like that to save myself and all the adjustments that come with it only to go about life as if it never happened. I've seen some "normal" people do the same thing and it's astonishing since they aren't any where as wealthy and it's like they just threw money away. There's one chick in particular that I can think of right now that claimed to have had surgery and she's still enormous. Then again, I don't believe much of what she's ever said because she's always had to fit into the crowd in some of the worst ways.

Update...

Well, whether he's done anything or not I don't seem to care. It's funny how things work out isn't it? I'm not sure if I just don't want to be bothered with such a thought or if I'm starting to not care as much as I used to. Either way it really doesn't bother me anymore other than being played for an idiot. Of course he said there wasn't anything going on and that I was being totally ridiculous. No matter how you slice it, being called some girl's name (especially her) was incredibly insulting and there was no excuse for it. It made sense to him apparently but then again, we all how what a tard he is. LOL

Got Ya Covered

I was so excited when I found out that we might be getting a discounted insurance plan until I found out it wasn't what I was expecting. The plans involve reimbursement rather than billing so this one isn't for us. There's no way that we can pay an upfront fee to see a doctor. I think there might be a way to do it the other way around if you stay within the network but there aren't any doctors around here on their plan. So it was a total bummer to say the least. I'm hoping that we can find a good insurance quote soon so I don't have to worry about this anymore. It's probably THE most stressful thing there is for me right now.

Not Another One

So Yes-Yes is talking about getting a ps3 now. He couldn't decide between that and the XBox and now that he has the XBox he wants the other one again. I think he only bought it so he could play Halo which is a ridiculous expense for the one game brand. I'm certainly not helping him with all of this game stuff since he's becoming so indecisive and spoiled. With the money that he spent on that thing he could have bought so much more. Then he decided not to listen and messed with the system, scratching up two games. He's becoming so frustrating. I know it's going to be way worse when No-No becomes a teen so I'm already bracing myself.

Is He Cheating?

Okay, if anyone reads this and has an opinion, feel free to weight in.

So a little bit ago DH started talking a little random and crazy, I think he's starting to "flash". So he's talking to me and all of a sudden he calls me some other chick's name! It's a long story but he's friends with the boyfriend of this girl's sister who also is one of his friends ex-girlfriends. They all live together so he sees her a lot. Of course I called him on it right away and am still blown away that it actually came out of his mouth. As soon as I did he immediately got defensive and said "it's not like you've never called me out my name". Uh, NO I haven't and if it was it was our kid's name, not some random dude. O M G I don't even know what to think right now.

So what would you think? Random slip of the tongue or something more sinister? Even if it was just an accident, if he's only going over there to see his friend, why is SHE on his mind? I think something's fishy...