Struggling with Weight

Like many people in the world, I have struggled with my weight and always seems to be on some sort of diet. I'm one of the millions that will end up buying at LEAST one weight loss product, program, or apparatus each year. Now that I've accumulated all of these things and haven't bought anything in a while, I'm FINALLY putting them to good use.

I think that my best tool has been that I've learned how to be healthier with eating. I still hate it though. LOL The good part is that I can moderate myself pretty well and limit my unhealthy choices to once a day if at all. I have cut down my portions and don't eat at night and if I do I have something like a salad. I have let go of my soda, which I did before but quickly regained when I had a more demanding schedule. I drink nothing but water and have something flavored only once a week to a month. I've always preferred to eat my calories rather than drink them anyway.

I really started to watch all of this and try to workout every day (that is the worst part that doesn't always happen) almost a month ago. To date, I have lost a total of 9 pounds and still going. I'm not anywhere near what most of us think as osbese but after having No-No I stayed home and the weight stayed...and grew. Once I gained a pound, it stayed until the next came on (I've always been pretty good about maintaning my weight, just not losing it). I'm determined to get this under control and be able to wear all of my pre-No-No clothes again...with luck and work, around May.

We're Going to Disneyland!

Okay...no, we really aren't...but we want to! I'm hoping that we can save up something to at least go down there for a weekend at least. It would be really nice to get away and have fun again. A mini vacation "in my head" isn't quite as fun. LOL I keep seeing those commercials that offer a special price or a free hotel night and I wish I could just jump on it right then. Had I had known, I would have signed up for Yes-Yes's birthday, because they have that free admission day, and it's the off season too. I would have to save up a lot of money for us though because I have a BAD habit of buying out the park stores when we're there. LOL I love cute stuff.

Doing What I Love

Now that I'm getting back on top of things one thing a lot of my energy will be going towards is my crafts. I LOVE my crocheting and jewelry making. I think I pride myself on that I have taught myself both things. I always knew that jewelry production was fun and that some day I could make something from it, didn't know HOW long, but all the same now I am. It's a nice thing to outlet my creative energy to and in time hopefully I can start something of my own going. I'd love to get feedback here on what I'm making so stay tuned!

Back to Reality

As we all know, I've been totally addicted to facebook. WELL...I have a new addiction, Superpoke Pets!

Back when tamagachis came out, I was one of the ones that had at least two. Sadly, so did my mom. LOL Of course I got bored with these and they ended up dying but they were fun. I almost got one of the newer ones to see what kind of changes that they made, those pixelated pets were SO hard to see.

NOW, I can play with my pet whenever I want and it won't die and it has tons of stuff that I can "buy" and decorate with. It also has become my new shopping fix since we don't have any money for me to do it in the real world. It's really nice to get lost in myself for a while and not have to focus on the stresses of reality...but, it's time to come back to Earth and have to face my demons. lol I started a little over a week ago playing this and have not done one thing that relates to everyday life other than eating and going to the bathroom. I do have mixed feelings but am getting better at letting this go and that makes me happy. Depression is not something that I ever want to face but SPP has certianly helped me conquor those feelings. ;o)

Clutter Crazy

I am still trying to get a handle on all the chaos in this house. I've been trying and trying for months but it almost seems endless. Home organizing looks so easy in all those magazines that swear to help you. Have you ever taken a really good look at the pictures? For example, they'll show you a bookcase and how every shelf has like 5-10 books or magazines stacked flat with some bowl or box or something on top of it. This looks really nice and all but I wanna know how this is functional. Do people really organize homes like this?! Highly doubtful unless they don't live there half the time.

And why us it that to be organized you have to go out and buy all sorts of things that hang, divide, or stack. What if you have absolutely no room to even put those things?! I've seen all kinds of makeover things that focus on small spaces where they change everything from light bulbs to storage but then it ends up looking like the room actually lost a whole lot of space. I am really at such a loss when it comes to organizing that I'm almost about to give up...not to mention that I can't afford to go out and get everything on a checklist that is supposed to make things easier.

Fun? What's that?!

You know, it's pretty sad...I'm stuck being mom to everyone so much that I've forgotten how to really have fun. Now that I'm back in touch with all my old friends it's kind of boggling to me to see pictures of them at clubs and things knowing that they're moms. It's not just that they are going out once in a while (I'm not that uptight) but they seriously go clubbing every single weekend. Um, where are their kids?! The other thing they all do very frequently is hire a limo to drive them through wine country for a tasting trip of a bunch of wineries. Ok yeah, this sounds nice and all and a ton of people older than us like doing it but again, they go WAY too often so it makes it seem to be another way of going to get drunk just in a more adult form. Then there's all the ones that go on Vegas vacations every few months.

I know all this must make me sounds like some sort of spinster but is this all really necessary? It kind of makes me wonder how their kids are going to turn out. They must feel neglected at some point knowing that every weekend their moms are looking forward to going out and not spending some fun time with them. Did I mention that not many of them can even keep a relationship going? This all makes me kind of glad that I decided to be a mom first. I still find ways to relax and have fun but not as recklessly as I did when I was younger. Seems like things really haven't changed for any of these people, so maybe I don't miss them as much as I thought I did.

A New Look!!

YAY! I finally had time to sit down and change this template! It's quite different from the cutie cupcakes that I had on here but I like it a lot. Well, for now...I'll! probably get tired of it shortly. LOL!!! So, what do you think?! If you can't tell, I'm quite proud of myself because I made it! I've been going through all my blogs and slowly but surely changing every one. I figure it might be nice to reflect a bit of myself on each one and know that I made them.

In other news...work's been slowly picking back up, I can't sleep more than an hour at night, and the diet is suffering because of it. I was seriously excited to find that I lost 4lbs last week! God knows i probably gained it all back already. LOL

I'll be back shortly!