In a Nutshell...

Well, there's been new but not good things happening around here lately. I can't believe sometimes how the different things in my life turn out.

Money is a bigger issue then ever now. We're SO close to losing the house. Most people would say to sell and that's what we're being told but the problem is that we wouldn't get enough extra after paying the loan to get anything else here and we'd be homeless. That's kind of a problem. We've already sold just about everything we can and our fridge is bare. Pancakes here we come! Feeding a family of 6 even with the toddler doesn't come cheap, especially when one of those 6 is a growing teenage boy.

About 3 weeks ago DH had an incident and was stabbed in the side. That was super scary! Add to that the reinjury of his hand...no work for him until he can be properly examined. This was probably the worst set back that we could have had. It's great that the injury was minimal although it went deep enough to his his bone and the recovery time was less than it could have been. I'm super glad he's okay but it just intills a new fear of his safety into me.

And lastly, I let my oldest friend go. She and I have been best friends since we were 12 and known each other since we were 6. She's changed a whole lot over the years and, in my opinion, not for the better. She tends to wonder why she can't ever hold onto more than 3 friendships at one time but won't ever look into herself and yes, she's the one becoming a shrink. Go figure. She treats me like a client rather than a best friend and hasn't actually referred to me as one since forever. Not that I look down on prioritizing yourself first but she took it way over the top and only cares about herself and her soon to be husband. She has such a lack of judgement now that she can't even pick out when she's making rude comments. That's just sad. Yes, I did tell her how I feel but since she can't seperate herself from her soon to be career nor treat me only as a friend, I had to let it go. Friends give advice, not ask you "so, how do you feel about that?" Friends are people to support you, not say "well you never listen to me so I'm not putting in my 2 cents." Do your friends "DO what you tell them to"?! I never thought that was a requirement.

All in all it's been a sad couple of months and transition is yet to take place. I keep saying hopefully it'll work out but it's not looking good for us and I'm not saying that anymore. We'll see what plays out.